The Aftermath

No matter how many times I deliver a speech or engage in media and events, I am frequently left with the same emotion for the next day or two.

Sadness. A kind of longing. A sense of emptiness.

A Change of Pace

I spend weeks and months practicing, preparing, and editing my work before every speaking engagement and training event.

Immersed, focused, lost in creative flow.

At night. On weekends. During every centimetre of free time.

Hoping to do my best. Not wanting to let the audience down.

Researching. Anticipating. Building  up to the main event.

Afterward, what was once filled with busyness is an open space.

A hollowness that cannot be filled by looking back or planning ahead.

An ache. A void. For no logical reason.

A place inside that can only be filled in present time.

Nature’s Medicine

Nature’s Prescription

When this post-speech emptiness arises, I go for a walk outside knowing how fresh air soothes my heart and replenishes my soul.

There is no more looking back or ahead when I am outside.

At that moment I hear three words deep in my heart.

Here I am.

Here I am.

For solace cannot be found in travelling through time.

It can only be found in where I am right now.

Here I am.

Here I am in the blooming trees.

Here I am in the birds soaring.

Here I am in the sun setting.

Here I am in the water flowing.

Here I am in this moment wherever you are.

Here I am. 💚